My ex-wife, Cathy, took off when I was in prison, taking our youngest daughter, Monica, with her. I didn’t see my older daughter Amy and two sons, Damian and Shane very often. They lived with their grandmother. And to tell you the truth, I’m not even sure Amy is mine.
I met Cathy when she was only 17. About a year before, Cathy’s mother decided it was time for Cathy to lose her virginity. So she picked up some drunk army guy named Jack in some sleezy bar near Fort Campbell. She introduced them to each other and basically had them fuck. Jack was deployed after that, but my ex-wife kept in touch with him on and off throughout the years. Amy seems to look more like Jack than like me. Nevertheless, my name is on the birth certificate, so I’ve always loved her just the same as my other kids.
But my little angel is and always has been Monica.
When I saw some punk beating up a kid who he thought was queer, I chose to intervene. I always carry a gun on me. I walked up to the motherfucker and shot him in the head at point blank range. I thought it was self-defense. The law didn’t see it that way. The cops would have let the guy go for killing that poor kid and would have quietly high-fived him for ridding the great redneck state of Tennessee of one more queer. I wasn’t going to let that happen. But because of my intervention, the best option I was given was to plead guilty to involuntary manslaughter and I was sentenced to fifteen years. They let me out in six for good behavior.
Some would call me a hero for what I did that night. But the only reason I was there in the first place was to sell dope. I had made a lot of bad choices in my 34 years.
After I went away to do my time, Cathy filed for divorce and took Monica with her. Because of my hard living lifestyle, she was as much into the drug scene as I was. A meth addict, she drove around the country, often living in trashy hotel rooms and sometimes even in her car– with one-year-old Monica in tow. I may have contributed to Cathy’s drug problems, but I will never forgive her for taking my little angel from me.
When I got out of prison, I tried to contact Cathy and see where she and Monica might be. Cathy sent me a couple of pictures of my little girl, but never once indicated where she was.
I began to lose hope of ever reuniting with Monica again, and thus started descending into my old ways. So here it was, Christmas Eve, and I was drinking and drugging along with my friends.
The party had been going on now for a few hours. People were getting drunk. People were getting high. And even some were having sex.
My bedroom was my fuck pad. I had all sorts of things that I used to turn on the ladies: a jacuzzi, a Harley (yes, every woman finds that to be a turn-on), a romantic fireplace, and even an old-fashioned Victorian-style four-post bed. When it was just me and the guys, I had a private bar and a liquor cabinet.
This evening, I had met some sweet young thing and after a few drinks, I had her alone in the fuck pad. Quite honestly, I couldn’t even tell you her name.
She was on her knees giving me the most delicious head, when suddenly the phone rang.
I went to answer it and it was the police department of a little town in California, just outside San Diego. I thanked the officer for getting in touch with me and hung up the phone.
I then turned to the girl who was giving me head.
“Time to go, baby girl,” I said. “Party’s over.”
Hours later, I arrived in San Diego on the red eye. It was Christmas morning.
I wore a business suit and a pair of army-issue horn-rimmed glasses. I was going to meet someone very special and didn’t want her to see that I had been partying. That sort of became my trademark look from that point on.
When I arrived at the police department, I was greeted by a woman from Child Protective Services.
“We tracked you down because you have a very smart little girl,” she said.
“What happened?” I asked.
“Seems her mother took her to a bank, went to use the restroom, and never came back.” she said.
“That’s not like Cathy,” I said. “Maybe she got lost or something.”
“Paul,” the social worker said, “You don’t need to pretend you don’t know what’s going on here.”
“Well, I guess she’s going back to Tennessee,” I said.
The social worker led me into a nursery room where, for the first time in years, I saw my little angel. The last time I saw her, she had just barely taken her first steps. I didn’t know what to say.
“Let’s go, sweetheart,” I said.
“Who are you?” she demanded.
“I’m your Daddy,” I said.
I drove back to the airport with Monica in a rental car, not sure what to say.
“So what do you do for school?” I asked.
“I don’t go to school,” Monica said. “Mommy teaches me.”
“She does?” I asked.
“Yeah,” Monica said, “whenever we stop at a hotel or something.”
“So what places have you been to?” I asked.
“Las Vegas, Reno, Laughlin, Phoenix, Salt Lake City, Denver, Kansas City, St. Louis, Chicago, Nashville,” she answered.
“Nashville, huh?” I said. “Well, I live pretty close to there.”
“We’ve also been to Dayton a few times,” she said.
“Really?” I asked. “What’s in Dayton?”
“There’s this man that Mommy visits sometimes,” she answered. “His name is Jack.”
We arrived at the airport, returned the rental car, and I stepped outside the terminal to have a smoke.
“Daddy, that’s bad for you,” Monica said.
“You’re right, sweetheart, it is,” I said.
She was right. This small and seemingly insignificant exchange was the watershed moment that woke me up as to how I needed to raise her. She couldn’t be allowed to see any of my transgressions, whether it be something as simple as cigarettes or the sex and meth-infested parties I liked to throw. Ideally, I would quit all of that. But in the meantime, I didn’t want Monica to see me as the male version of Cathy. I couldn’t let that happen. I needed to set a better example. So I tossed out the cigarette butt and walked inside the airport.
I brought her back home and gave her a new life. She was the best Christmas present I ever had. She hadn’t known me long enough to to say the same.
“I can’t do anything to fix Christmas,” I said. “But I promise Daddy will make it up to you on your birthday.”
I had started going to church, even though I considered myself an agnostic. I had no idea how to raise Monica right. I figured that changing my social network would go a long way in getting rid of my bad habits and hard living lifestyle. I met a few other parents in the church and joined a chapter of Narcotics Anonymous.
My old friends, however, weren’t used to the new me.
On the day I threw Monica her birthday party, my two childhood best friends, Jimmy and Ryan, came over to hang out. On their way into the house, they made some very crude and inappropriate jokes before seeing Monica sitting there. It was partly my fault, as they had not known the story.
But I wanted to be clear that none of that sort of stuff would be tolerated.
The one success I had during this time period was that I was able to kick the drugs. I quit meth and cocaine very shortly after Monica arrived and haven’t touched them since. But my bedroom was still a place I associated with sin, booze, and wild sex. In the event that I ever be tempted to go back to the hard life, I wanted to make sure that Monica never saw the inside of that room. It became somewhat of a sanctuary.
Over the next few years, I watched Monica grow from a sweet young girl to a beautiful young woman. As a single father, I dreaded the day when she would have her first period. How would I handle that as a man? So around the age of ten, I started taking her to church with me and getting her acquainted with some of the women there. I never did truly become a Christian, but I wanted to appear that way for Monica’s sake.
The first period came and went without incident or fanfare. But then came my next big dread: boys.
Shortly after she entered 9th grade, Monica started telling me all about a boy named Brian. He drank, he got into all kinds of trouble, he was constantly getting suspended from school. She told me all about his tattoos and piercings. For the first time, I felt that the wholesome environment I tried to raise her in was threatened. Nevertheless, I tried to keep an open mind and told Monica to invite Brian to dinner.
When Brian walked through the door, it was like traveling in a time machine and seeing myself at 17 years old. Still, I tried to keep an open mind.
“So have you thought about college, Brian?” I asked.
“No fucking way am I going to college,” Brian said.
“We don’t talk like that in this house,” I said firmly.
“Sorry,” Brian said.
After that, we had a somewhat polite dinner. But there was no way this kid was going to be allowed anywhere near my daughter. The last person I wanted Monica dating was me.
I told Brian that I didn’t think he should be seeing Monica and that I would prefer he not call or come around anymore.
Monica wasn’t very happy with me at the time, but apparently she came to realize what a jerk Brian was when he spread rumors about sleeping with her. Then, she thanked me for my intervention.
Throughout the nearly ten years I had Monica in my house as a child, I didn’t date or have any sexual relationships. My focus was on being a single father. But once Monica was 17, I started giving myself permission to explore that side of me once again. After all, I wasn’t getting any younger.
I decided to post a personal ad on craigslist. Shortly after that, I met a young girl named Tanya. She was only 21 years old. Despite our 30 year age difference, we seemed to hit it off.
Our first date was very casual. We met for coffee, where I explained that I had a 17-year old daughter who was in high school and would be heading to college next year. I said that I wasn’t sure what to do with myself after being a full-time dad for 10 years. Tanya was very sweet, very innocent, and very different from other women in my life.
On our second date, I invited her to the house. I instructed her to come in the back door, the direct entrance to my bedroom so that Monica wouldn’t see her.
I showed her around and gave her the tour. Then, I offered her a drink from the liquor cabinet.
“So this is my place,” I said.
“Nice,” she said.
I wasted no time getting her clothes off. It had been years since I had a piece of pussy and I was horny as fuck.
She sat naked on my Harley as I took pictures of her. In one pose, she sucked on the handle bars with her beautiful ass in the air. In another, she sat with her back against the seat with her legs spread open wide. I got in between her legs for a good close-up shot of her open pussy.
“How ’bout coming over here and sucking my cock,” I said.
She did as instructed, and I unzipped my jeans to expose my manhood for her to suck on. Tanya was, to say the least, extremely talented.
Shortly after, I grabbed ahold of the back of her head and fucked her face.
After she finished blowing me, I invited her into the jacuzzi.
I sat down in the jacuzzi to join her. Completely wet, she stood over me, my face buried in her pussy.
I ate her out for a good several minutes, massaging the inside of her twat, her beautiful pink lips, and her little clit with my tongue.
When finished, she lay on her back on the edge of the jacuzzi. I took her legs over my shoulder and began to fuck her. My cock plunged in and out of her cunt until she began to have an orgasm. Then I plowed her even harder. After a few minutes, I started to come. I shot my juice deep into her.
Then I got out of the jacuzzi and sat on the edge. I cuddled with her, my towel wrapped around the both of us.
“I’d really like to see more of you,” I said.
“Yeah,” Tanya said, “That would be awesome.”
Tanya and I dated for a few months. Eventually, I introduced her to Monica. Unfortunately, being that she and Monica were roughly the same age, they became friends. This is the turning point where the world that I had kept hidden from Monica was about to crumble.
Tanya told Monica about the parties that I had and the sex that we had in the privacy of my sanctuary. And finally, I decided that it would be best that Tanya and I didn’t see each other any more. She was a wonderful and bright young woman. But her loose lips sunk our ship.
I wasn’t about to give up on my sex life. Having Tanya in my life was somewhat of a wakeup call. Unfortunately, it was also a temptation into my old ways.
One day, I called up Jimmy and Ryan to see if they wanted to come down for a little get-together. They arrived at about 7 o’clock and by 10, my room was a drunken hellhole. There were drugs and booze and crazy stuff happening all over the place.
Ryan had brought his 20-year-old son, Kyle, who had been raised very different than I had raised Monica. Ryan and his wife Allison were into the swinging scene and did their own share of partying. Instead of sheltering Kyle and their other kids from all that, they let him indulge in it.
Kyle was getting drunk and high, right along with his mom and dad. They offered me a hit of their crystal meth pipe. Tempted as I was, I passed.
Shortly after that, there was a knock at the door. Kyle jumped up to answer it.
“Hi Babe!” he said to my half-asleep daughter. “Come on in!”
I ran to the door and pushed Kyle away, stepped out, and shut the door behind me.
I was a little tipsy and I put my arm around Monica and pleaded with her to go back to bed. I gave her a kiss and told her good night. Then, I returned to the party and continued to get drunk until the wee hours of the morning.
I was barely able to get up a few hours later to send her off to school. I felt very guilty for what had happened. I did not want her seeing that part of me. Ever.
So, I made sure that breakfast was ready when she came downstairs.
“Good morning, Daddy,” she groaned.
I could clearly see the toll that my loud partying had taken on her ability to sleep.
“Sweetheart, about last night…” I began.
But I was cut off.
At that moment, she accidentally dropped her bath robe.
For a second, a beautiful young naked woman stood before me. She had the most perfect breasts, a nice little bush, just the right figure, and beautiful young skin…
Wait a minute, I thought, that’s my daughter! Perish these thoughts!
“Sweetheart, uh…” was all my mouth would let out.
“You act like you’ve never seen a naked woman before,” Monica said, clearly embarrassed, but also doing a fantastic job hiding it.
“Well, it’s just that you’re…”
Don’t say it! I thought.
“What?” she asked.
“I don’t know,” I said.
“Come on, Daddy,” she said. “Let’s eat.”
At that moment, I hated myself. I was so ashamed. Was the alcohol still in me? No, I had been sobered up for a few hours now. I couldn’t let myself have another moment like that. I just couldn’t.
But there was more…
“So, if I told you I was thinking about, I don’t know, going all the way with a guy…” she said before I cut her off.
“Absolutely not,” I said.
It’s bad enough that I just had a small moment of admiration of my own daughter’s naked body. I really did not want to talk with her about losing her virginity.
“Daddy,” she continued, “you didn’t let me finish.”
Maybe it was my fault. Maybe my moment of weakness the night before was the symptom of a bigger problem. Maybe I was beginning to fail as a role model. That thought terrified me.
“Look, what you saw last night was a mistake,” I said. “I’ve tried to raise you with good morals and be a good role model for you.”
“You are a good role model, Daddy,” she said. “You took me in when I was eight. You raised me. And you raised me with good values. But I’m almost 18 and I’m going to be a grown woman.”
“But you’ll always be my little girl,” I said.
That night, I lay in bed with terrible thoughts. I imagined my own daughter making a sexual move on me. In my head, I knew this was not the case. After all, when she dropped the robe, it was an accident, right? It’s only natural for a male to be aroused by the sight of a fully-developed very attractive young woman, isn’t it? But not when it’s your daughter.
Still, I couldn’t get the thought of her naked out of my head. My dick started to get rock hard. Okay, I knew I was going to Hell for this, but there was only one way to get it to go down.
I’ll just fantasize about Monica and get it over with, I thought. I’m sure I’ll come to my senses when I come. So I jerked off for several minutes, shooting a stream of cum high into the air. The release was fantastic. But then came the shame.
Over the next couple of days, I just tried to banish the thought from my head. The jerking off was the fantasy. The shame was the reality. As long as I just kept the impure thoughts in my head and stuffed them away, I thought things would be fine.
One evening, I had fallen asleep in front of the TV in the living room, these aching thoughts still dominating my mind, no matter how hard I tried to banish them. I tried to comfort myself by thinking there is absolutely no way a young 18-year old girl would have the hots for an old 51-year old man, much less her own father.
But then, I felt a kiss on my lips. I woke up suddenly, my daughter standing over me.
“Honey, what are you doing!” I exclaimed.
“”Just came home and thought I’d give you a kiss before going to bed,” I said. “You’re still my Daddy, right?”
“Of course,” I said.
Now there was no doubt in my mind she was attempting to seduce me. What had I said or done that would have given her these thoughts? I raised her well. I never once abused or molested her in any way. Had someone else? I didn’t even want to think about it. I just wanted her to go to bed.
“Good night, babe,” I said.
“Babe?” she asked.
Maybe “babe” was the wrong choice of words. If she’s on to my own impure thoughts about her, this could really bad quick.
“You know what I mean,” I said. “By the way, something is really weird with you lately. It’s like…”
“I don’t know,” I said. “I’m just happy. There’s a guy that I really like.”
Maybe that’s all it was. She’s got the hots for some guy and she’s just giddy. There, I thought. It is all in my head after all.
“Oh,” I said. “Tell me about him, sweetheart.”
“Well, he’s kind of a bad boy,” she said.
Please, I thought, not another Brian.
“No,” I said. “No bad boys. Keep him out of my house.”
“Well, that might be a little hard, considering he lives here,” she said.
Oh shit, I thought. Maybe it’s not all in my head. But just in case it is…
“What!” I roared.
“Who the hell do you have living in my house without me knowing about it?”
Without delay, Monica walked over to kiss me again. This time, she tried to slip me the tongue. No, it wasn’t in my head. It was real. My own daughter was making a play for me.
“It’s you, Daddy.”
I laughed, still in disbelief.
“Good one!” I said.
“Good night,” she said, walking away. “Love you!”
That night, I lay in bed, once again with a rock-hard dick. I jerked off once again to fantasies about Monica. Afterwards, I started having questions about how this could actually happen. Could me and Monica do something once and then just never go there again? If we did, she would have to make the first move. But she already did. Should I reciprocate?
No. I was not going to start thinking these dark thoughts.
The next morning, Monica and I had breakfast together and both of us were at a loss for words. But I had to break the silence. I wanted to get this matter out in the open so that we could both just agree that it’s stupid and be done with it.
“Sweetheart,” I said, “about this guy you keep talking about…who is he? I’m serious.”
Of course, I knew who it was. But I wanted to give her yet another chance to back out.
“I told you, Daddy, it’s you.”
“Sweetheart…” I said.
“I’ve just been having these fantasies lately, you know, about….you being my first,” she confessed. “I want it to be you. You’ve always been a good father and protector. And I’d love for my first time to be with someone I love and respect as much as I do you. And that means nobody but you.”
It sounded reasonable. And yes, I had been guilty of those same fantasies. But I was the adult here. I could not and would not continue along this path.
“Sweetheart,” I began, “it’s perfectly normal to have those kind of fantasies. And you telling me that doesn’t change anything between us at all. But I’m your father…and we just can’t go there.”
“I’m going to be 18 next week,” she said. “I’m going to be an adult. We’ll both be adults. We can keep it a secret. It’s not like I want to marry you or anything. I just want to lose my virginity to the man I love most in this world…and that’s you.”
“Honey, I…I don’t know what to say.”
She didn’t know what to say either. She got up and undid her blouse, once again revealing her breasts to me. The bath robe drop the other day was an act. It was clear to me that she was dead serious about wanting to have a sexual relationship with me. She kissed me on the mouth. In my moment of weakness, I put up no resistance.
“Just think about it, okay.” she said. “I have to get to school.”
I didn’t answer her. But think about it was all I did over the next few days. I went back and forth in my mind about how I could do something this awful and still find a way to live with myself. During some moments, I decided to just go for it. If she wanted to fuck, maybe I could just show her a time she’ll never forget. It would be, in a way, the responsible thing to do. After all, she would soon be going off to college and some jerk like Brian would fuck her and forget her. She needed a man who will make sure her first time is a dignified and wonderful experience…
…No!
She needed a Dad.
A couple nights later, after a very tense and silent dinner, I excused myself to go to my sanctuary. She stopped me.
“So how come you’ve never let me see your bedroom?” she asked.
“Sweetheart,” I said, “there are certain boundaries that need to exist between you and I.”
“Oh,” she said. “We’re back to that.”
She got up and placed her hand on my crotch, searching for my cock. It began to become hard as a rock. Okay, I thought. This has gone too far.
“Young lady,” I said, in full parental form. “Sit down.”
Monica laughed, as if I was playing.
“Daddy! I was enjoying that!”
“These are the ground rules,” I began. “We’re not going to do this. I don’t want you walking around naked. I don’t want you kissing me on the mouth. I don’t want you playing with my crotch. We’re going to have normal father-daughter boundaries in this house. Do you understand me?”
“Daddy!”
“Do you understand me!!!”
“Yes,” she said.
“I don’t want you to think I don’t love you,” he said. “I love you more than anything on this earth. But I’m not going to be having a sexual relationship with my daughter. Period.”
“Okay,” she said quietly, the look on her face one of devastation and shame.
“Now go to bed,” I ordered
It broke my heart that I had humiliated her. I never in a million years wanted my little angel to feel that way. But it would be my final push of resistance.
The next morning, we had breakfast and as much as I didn’t want the subject to come up, I knew better. First, I sincerely wanted to apologize for the way I made her feel.
“Listen, sweetheart,” I said. “I’m sorry about the way I sent you to bed last night.”
“Let me ask you something, Daddy,” she said, “Did you enjoy it?”
I did. But I couldn’t let her know that.
“Daddies and daughters aren’t supposed to be doing that sort of thing, honey.”
“That isn’t what I asked.”
“Okay,” he admitted. “Yeah, I can see some guy someday is going to be very lucky to have a woman who…”
She cut me off.
“Gives good head?” she said, finishing my sentence.
“Monica, that’s enough. Let’s just forget about it, okay?”
“Whatever you say, Daddy,” she said.
I was finally beaten at this game. Everything I had tried to get the thoughts out of my head, to try to do the noble thing, and to instill firm father-daughter boundaries had failed. Monica and I were on a dangerous course of action and I was at a crossroads at this point. I didn’t know how to deal with it.
I remembered that she will be heading off to college in the fall. One way I thought I might be able to get these thoughts out of her mind is to buy her a car. She was totally dependent on me for basically everything. Giving her some freedom would do a world of good.
I walked upstairs to make sure she would be home when her new ‘Stang was parked in the driveway. As I climbed the stairs, I heard the sound of the shower. The bathroom door was wide open. She was naked behind the translucent shower door. It was clear to me that no matter what I did, she was not going to let up.
So as she showered, I had yet another moment of weakness. I just stood there, admiring her beautiful naked body. Given that I couldn’t see her face, it was easy for me to not see her as my daughter, but as a woman. I began developing a new way of thinking about all of this.
She finished her shower and stepped out, her naked body in full view…and what a beautiful sight it was to behold.
“You could have joined me, you know,” she said.
I ignored this comment…for now.
“I just came up here to tell you to come straight home from school,” I said. “I have a birthday present waiting for you.”
She went off to school that day and I began my contemplation.
She had beaten me.
Story Note: This is a re-telling of “Daddy’s Man-Cave”, as told from the perspective of the father. I decided to write the story in this way so that the upcoming sequel will make sense. It all takes place in 2021, in case you find that the math doesn’t add up with the dates and ages of the characters.
Via: https://www.lushstories.com/stories/incest-fantasy/the-ultimatum-part-1