âThe Light of the Sunâ
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For all of the human heartâs shortcomings, there is a great deal to be said for the sphere of emotion. Reason, insight, and intellect are admirable, even outstanding in their ability to teach us to overcome our obstacles, but on their own, they lack depth and complexity⊠a soul to give them context. Physics and engineering give us a glimpse into the inner workings of the universe, but curiosity and inspiration take us to the stars and beyond. A composition might be technically precise, so finely crafted as to be a masterwork recognized the world over, but only with an emotional investment, a piece of its creator and its audience, does it move us to tears. Logic tells us that oppression is wrong, but courage lends us the strength to do something about it.
Emotion can bring out the worst in us, but also the best.
Jennifer Reed, soon to be Jennifer Halvers, was the embodiment of heart and soul to Jahn. Here was a woman who had grown up ruled by a passionate desire to right any perceived wrongs against herself or her sister. Practically a tomboy, but for all her small stature, sheâd scrapped like a demon, and had probably been in more fights as a child than he had over the course of his entire life. Adulthood hadnât changed her much â she could flare up like a sunburst, but when the fire at last died down, she was sweetness and light, the soul of apology, giving back love far more easily than angry words. Despite the slight difference in age, she was Fionaâs polar twin, tails to the heads, heart to mind, sun to moon.
These were the thoughts going through his head, as Jahn watched her pack her bag for the upcoming camping trip. Theyâd argued a bit; heâd not seen a need for her to drag so much clothing along for a weekend, sheâd insisted that it was no more or less than sheâd packed in previous years for the same outing. Eventually, heâd realized it for a pointless argument. If she wanted to haul a bunch of stuff around, it could just be left in the back of the car. He didnât want to fight with her, say things that make him feel like a world-class asshole. Unlike Fiona, who could trade barbs in an argument as well as he could, skewering him with her sharp wit, Jen got hurt feelings. She could be incredibly confident, cool and intelligent, but when her passions got riled up, those things were usually the first to go. Fighting over inconsequential crap wasnât worth the heartache or the risk.
âSo, who allâs coming?â Jahn asked, trying not to laugh at her intense focus on just which bikini to bring. The weather was mild, but it was October, and he didnât see himself taking a polar bear plunge.
âMostly Vee en Pees, but Gregâs invited one of his friends from that law firm he works at. The rest are either my friends or Fionaâs: Ashley, Kim and her guy, Marita and Deanna, JulieâŠâ Trailing off, she put a finger to her lips. âThatâs everyone, I think. Chris and ⊠Andrea might show up for the barbecue on Friday, but theyâre not staying for the weekend.â Her voice showed relief at that reprieve. Whatever peace heâd found with his ex certainly did not extend to Andrea and Jen. Brightening, she turned her attention back to her task, discarding the bikini, and digging through her underwear instead.
âSayâŠâ she asked, glancing at him briefly.
âYeah?â he asked idly.
âEver thought about a threesome?â Fuck, a grenade! Fire in the hole! He thought, desperately trying to work out an answer. Unbidden, the old perverse fantasy comes to mindâŠ
//We share _everything_ his girlfriends tittered at him at him from the bed. Want to join us?//
âAbsolutely not,â lying emphatically, not even able to call it half-truth easily.
Suspicion flickered in her blue eyes, and obviously he hadnât covered his momentary fantasy well enough, or she was remembering the first time sheâd called him out for the same thing. âLet me rephrase that,â the blonde said. âEver thought about a threesome with me and someone _other_ than Fiona?â
âAnswerâs still no.â Honest truth that time, he wouldnât consider for a second hooking up with one of Jenâs friends. They were fun to hang out with, certainly, as full of vibrant energy as Jen herself, and attractive for the most part, but⊠Ashley had looked at him like a tasty cut of meat ever since sheâd found out about the impending wedding, Kim was kind of a freak, to put it nicely, and Julie seemed to channel that Do the Creep video any time she went looking for a guy at the dance club. That wasnât baggage that he wanted, and more importantlyâŠ
âWhy not?â Jen asked with curiosity on her face as she turned her full attention to him. âI mean, Iâve seen your magazines and you know that Iâm not opposed to the idea.â
âBecause, Fiona.â He responded, more shortly than he intended. There were a few good reasons he didnât see the need to put voice to but the one that mattered was commitment. Explaining, he said, âFantasyâs fine and all, but I donât think Fionaâs anywhere near as liberated on the idea as you or I.â
âWell, your birthdayâs coming up, and I kinda wanted to do something really special and different for your present.â
Grinning, he leaned back and said. âYou donât have to go to extremes. You know what they say: the way to a manâs heart is a steak and a blowjobâŠâ
âYou know I canât cook, you dick.â She sniffed peevishly at him, folding her arms beneath her breasts, but still in good temper.
âIâm not saying the idea isnât appealing. Iâm just saying that you donât have to do things like that to make me happy. Thereâs fun, and then thereâs us. Iâm not going to go around shoving my cock into any girl that comes along, because itâs not right.â
Mulling that over, she asked with an enigmatic smile, âWhat if it were just me and another girl, and you get to watch?â
âUhhhh.â Just canât resist lobbing those grenades, can you sweetheart? He Mentally trying to clear the drool that now seemed to be coating the inside of his skull, he stumbled out, âI donât-â
Confident of her checkmate, Jen said, âWe can talk about it again later⊠thereâs still a week yet.â
Talking, communicating⊠communicate – that was the key! Jahn responded casually, âItâs still me alone in the room with you and another naked womanâŠYou really should ask Fiona, not me.â
âYou donât think Iâll do it, do you?â A cat-like grin creased her face, blue eyes glittering at him like sapphires in light. No, he was quite sure that would be the first question she asked Fiona when her sister got home, and he resigned himself to it.
âSo, Jahhhhn.â The blonde said, practically purring at him. âFiona says itâs fine by her as long as you follow a no-contact rule. Voy and Ex, you know.â
âUh, really?â he said to Fiona. âYou donât have a problem with me being alone in a room with Jen and some naked woman? Thatâs kind of stretching the trust limits, yeahâŠ?â
Fionaâs uncharacteristic smirk deepened. âOh, I certainly do trust you, but itâs not really necessary. âGreg will no doubt ensure that you keep your hands off his girlfriend.â
Oh. Shit. Shit. Oh shitty fucking shit shit. He couldnât seem to think of anything but profanity, and a limited selection at that. The idea of Jen getting down with some girl was a hot fantasy, and Amy wasnât unattractive, and he didnât have issues with Greg anymore, butâŠ
Attention back to Jen, he said accusingly, âWas it your idea, or Amyâs?â
Eyes dancing, she said, âNeither, actually. It was Ashleyâs, but thereâs no way in hell Iâm letting that free throw anywhere near you.â Good to know that he wasnât the only one that had noticed the redheadâs undue attention to him. âIt was just girl-talk, came up when I was discussing your birthday present. Both Kim and Ashley had said theyâd done them before, and thought it was a lot of fun⊠not even sure how Amy and I got on the subject when the others were gone, but she wanted to do something for Greg too, so it kinda went from there.â
âWell, I guessâŠâ
âJust say âThanks for the amazing birthday present, Jenâ and get over it already.â The blonde advised him, as Fiona chimed in with, âOh puhlease, Jahn. Jen already told me about those magazines you got rid of.â
âAnd thereâs absolutely _no_ chance youâll con me into something like this, adventurous spirit or not,â the brunette warned him, as if heâd been behind the whole thing.
That was remarkable to Jahn, the understanding that while Greg was providing a much needed emotional bond for the woman, Jen had given her something equally important – a solid friendship that had helped restore laughter and other elements of happiness to her life that a relationship couldn’t always provide.
While an occasional comment might briefly subdue her, provoking a haunted expression, sheâd simply cast it off. She was in love and loving life. She deserves it, Jahn thought. Hope Greg is capable of living up to what she needs him to be. That was uncomfortably close to home, echoing his own concerns about the future yet to come, and he derailed the train of thought to welcome them to the party.
The man was a lot friendlier than Jahn had ever recalled him being, and it was hard to dislike the guy the way he once had. No point in making the effort to maintain old hostilities. Conversation over beer and brats went on for a long time, drifting from one thing to another, even passing over Andrea without incident. Greg had made his own peace with her long ago when sheâd heard about his incident with Edwards at V&P and had given him a call to chat. Guess itâs impossible to dislike someone with the guts to stand up for others when your eyes arenât blinkered by old grudges. Wish I hadnât taken so long to see it, Jahn thought.
Chris and Andrea stopped by briefly, just long enough to enjoy the meal and chat with Fiona. Jenâs exuberance had abruptly shifted into low-gear when she realized Jahnâs ex had shown up and was talking to Fiona, and him as well. Lips pursed in disapproval, she watched until Andrea noticed her unrelenting gaze. With a glance at Fiona and a sigh, the taller woman squared her shoulders and approached his fiancĂ©e, who noticeably bristled as she did so.
âHey, Jennifer.â Her greeting was met with stony silence that was broken when Andrea extended a hand to her diplomatically. âI know we probably wonât ever be friends, but Iâm willing to call a truce if you are. Bygones?â
Startled, Jen examined the proffered hand as if it were a live snake. Jahn had told her about his reconciliation with his ex, but the two women had a little history of their own, dating back to college days. The blonde didnât do big speeches, and after some consideration, she simply said, âOkay then,â and took the extended hand, squeezing it with some warmth. It was as good as they were going to get, Jahn knew.
Fiona stood quietly next to him, smiling with approval and he asked, âHey, just what does *chkt* mean anyway?â
âChkt?â Surprised, she looked askance at him for a moment before realizing what he was talking about. âOhhhh, that. You recall that Jen and I got into a lot of scraps as kids. You know how upset she gets. Itâs kind of a code we worked out to help her step back and think about what sheâs doing, my way of reminding her that sheâs getting worked up and what sheâs doing has consequences. I donât use it lightly, and she pays attention.â
âThatâs⊠unique,â he offered aloud, as tactfully as he could. It sounded like conditioning, was his actual thought, vaguely recalling lessons from an old Psych class.
Shaking her head, she responded, âItâs not a dog signal, just light communication. You canât always talk someone down, and sometimes actions count for more than words.â
Wisdom that, he thought.
Jen had arranged for Greg and Amy to come to their tent on Saturday night, and while he expected the man to be about as comfortable with the situation as Jahn was, he did come, following his bright-eyed girlfriendâs lead in silence. The pavilion tent, meant to house Jahn and his two fiancĂ©es was more than spacious enough, and the blonde had already set up shop, piling sleeping blankets in the center of the space, with a folding chair on either side, and a single lantern to light the room. A cozy atmosphere, for whatever that was worth. With the zip-windows closed, the room was dark enough that he and Greg didnât have to look at each other, and that was an incredible relief.
Canât imagine having to look the guy in the eye as my fiancĂ©e lezzes it up with his girlfriend, he thought, pent up nervousness making him fidget. Bromance, this is not.
While Amy turned a radio sheâd carried in to a nice and loud rock ân roll station, Jen shed her clothes, never the shy one about getting naked in public. âBrrr,â she shivered, as the cool October air made her nipples harden. âLetâs get it heated up in here, shall we?â she said, grinning wickedly at Amy. The curly-haired brunette showed a bit more trepidation about taking her clothes off, but nodded her head when Jen asked her if she still wanted to do this.
Jahnâs breath caught as Amy revealed her body to the others watching her. Long since healed, but still visible, scars of various sizes marked her shoulders and upper arms, and the sides of her breasts as well. Cigarette burns? Places where the skin had been split by a beating? Edwards is a filthy, fucking animal, he thought with a simmering anger that he quenched with effort when he saw Amy looking at the others in the room with some anxiety, maybe seeking their approval. She smiled when Gregâs shadowy figure gave her a thumbs up and turned her attention back to Jen.
It was Jen who took the initiative, of course. Amy had several inches on his own girlfriend, and the blonde had to pull her in for a kiss that while not as tongue-wrenchingly passionate as their own, certainly had no sisterly qualities to it. As they kissed, Jen slid her hands into the brunetteâs hair, curling her fingers in the wavy locks and stroking the sides of her companionâs skull. The kiss seemed to last forever, but both women visibly relaxed as they did so, and when Amy finally pulled back, it was to examine Jenâs breasts with a delicate touch. Gregâs girlfriend was well-endowed, but Jen had tits to spare, and Amy spent some time fondling them admiringly as the blonde smiled complacently under her ministrations.
When sheâd had enough of being fondled, Jen responded with some touching of her own, immediately going for the prize, slipping a slender hand through the light bush between the brunetteâs legs, and massaging her pussy. Amy gave a startled cry as the smaller woman made contact with her clit, and Jen started to pull away, but the brunette placed a hand on her shoulder and drew her back. Grinning confidently as Amy spread her legs more widely, Jen began to play her hand over the womanâs labia, teasing her clit, only slightly penetrating with a finger between those lower lips. Jahn noticed with some surprise that Jen was mimicking his technique. Tease, he thought, his cock growing hard with the voyeuristic thrill of the ongoing display.
Music deliberately drowned out the sounds of Amyâs response to Jenâs masturbatory play, but what he could hear stifled any question of whether she was getting anything out of what Jen was doing to her. Wanting to share the sensation with her playmate, Amy drew the blonde down to the blankets, positioning Jen on her back and straddling her face as she pulled the smaller womanâs legs apart. Their positioning gave him a solid view of his fiancĂ©eâs face and hands between Amyâs spread legs while Greg got a similar view from the opposite side. Craning her neck back, Jen gave him a lewd wink before diving back in. By lamplight, he could see Amyâs pussy glistening damply even before Jen began to run her tongue over it, eliciting an almost inaudible squeal of pleasure. A sharp explosion of breath from Jen told him that her playmate had just done the same, and he felt a small spike of jealousy when his fiancĂ©e came almost immediately under the other womanâs touch. They continued on in that vein, a flurry of licking and touching, breathless squealing, gasping and moaning straight out of some of his favorite fantasies.
A surreal experience, watching the two women couple in the lamp lit shadows of the tent, in some ways much like a soft core sex film, though what Jen was doing between Amyâs legs was very visible to him here.
In the darkness, time seemed to stretch like an eternity, though in reality it had to have been less than an hour when the pair finally grew tired of the play and clothed themselves again, sharing a smile and hugging before Amy and Greg left, hand in hand.
âSo, what did you think of that?â she said, tracing a finger over his chest.
âGreat birthday present,â he admitted. âReally hot, but strange, like watching an old porno.â
âYeah,â she said, nodding. âIt felt nice, but in some ways itâs like⊠playing with myself. All physical response, but without any ⊠emotion behind it. Fun, but I think we can chalk this up on the list of âbeen there, done that, got the t-shirtâ things weâve tried already, okay?
âYou want a t-shirt with that on it?â he teased.
Her eyes widened with mock outrage, âOnly if you want it stuffed down your throat.â
âKinky,â he said, reaching for her.
âYou ainât seen nothing yet, Mr. Halvers,â she laughed, pulling him down to the blankets with her. Their lovemaking was short, a mercifully brief release from the extended show heâd enjoyed, but it was⊠intense, driving deep into her as if he were trying to stake a claim. Jealous of a one-night stand, he thought. Damn.
The campout weekend passed into pleasant memory, and Jahnâs birthday was celebrated the next. Fionaâs gift caught him by surprise; he knew she would go for something she felt more meaningful than Jenâs sexy gifts, but what she gave himâŠ
Simply, wow.
When she handed him the small jewelry box, he at first thought it was a locket, and it wasnât so different for all that, but⊠it was a pocket watch of all things. Modeled after one of those old numbers, it had a sterling silver casing that unsnapped to display the clock within. Not windup, she assured him, because sheâd know that would be a pain in the backside. Just a specially crafted gift, but what made it truly special was the portrait within the other side of the casing
It was a near photo-perfect picture of himself, with Fiona on one shoulder, Jen on the other, like an old photo of lovers in a locket. It was not a photo, however, because heâd never taken that particular shot with them. Not a photo, but a painting, so incredibly well-rendered that he had to look closely to tell it for what it was.
âBeautiful,â he whispered, leaning his face towards hers.
âMe, or the watch?â she asked, brown eyes shining with good humor, raising her face to his.
A kiss was the only response she needed.
The month of October became a blur, closing in on Halloween. So many memories this year, he thought, as he added pictures from the Tallagua Lake campout to his nearly full scrapbook. Memories are made of this, he thought fondly, those old lyrics haunting him at the oddest of times. You could build a lifetime on a foundation like this. Theyâre like those leaves fallen from the trees, but so much more solid.
His reflections were interrupted by the front door quietly opening, and then closing, signaling the return of the two women from their shopping trip for costumes. Jahn wasnât quite sure what he was going to wear yet, but he thought-
âJahn.â Closing his scrapbook, he looked up to see Jen and Fiona standing across the end table from him. No shopping bags, and Jenâs head was raised just high enough to reveal an expression of abject misery on her face, the beginning of tears forming. Old fears swam to the surface of his gut, and he looked from her to Fiona, who had an arm around her sisterâs shoulder, the arm with a comforting brown hand upon Jenâs own slim fingers.
Expression revealing nothing, she spoke only two words, words that by themselves were enough to turn a world on its axis.
âJennyâs pregnantâŠâ
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